Friday, December 31, 2010

11 short days

This will be a short update because I have no words right now, I am numb and confused. 

I am deeply saddened to post that my beautiful baby boy went to heaven on Dec 30 around 5:30 am. We held him and kissed him as he went to be with Jesus. All we had was 11 short days with him, they were the greatest days of my life.

I never heard my baby cry, I never changed his diaper, I never got to feed him. All I have left of him is a small clip of his hair, some footprints and pictures. My arms feel so empty. I only held my baby twice. Once when he was 8 days old with tubes and wires everywhere. The second time while he was leaving this earth.

I will be taking a break for awhile as I try to get through this very tough time. I appreciate all the words of kindness and every single prayer. I am truly amazed at how many people have supported me through all of this.

We made the funeral arrangements today it was something no parent should have to do. For everyone interested Parker's services will be at...

Clarks Funeral Home
312 S Wood St 
Neosho, MO 64850

Visitation from 6-7 pm on Tuesday, Jan 4th
Funeral at 10 am on Wednesday, Jan 5th

I miss you more than you will ever understand my sweet angel. I would give my life to hold you just one more time. Your mommy and daddy will NEVER forget you and we love you more than we ever thought possible.

42 comments:

  1. Heather~ I am so sorry for your loss..your Parker will always be remembered..and 11 days is certainly not enough..Praying for peace for you and Adam..((hugs))

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  2. Heather, I'm so so so so sorry. But I'm sure you've heard that plenty of times to know that's just not enough to take away your pain. I'm fighting back my tears for you and Adam. Please know that you'll be in my prayers. Definitely asking Jesus for peace to you guys. I hurt for you, and wish I could give you a huge! (Even if it was from a complete stranger.)

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  3. There are no words. There never are. Just tears over the loss of your sweet Parker Phoenix Everett. Both you and Adam will be on my heart and mind over the next several weeks, and always. Take care of yourself my dear and let us know if there is anything us heart moms can do.

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  4. Heather and Adam, You both are in my prayers and have been since I met you. I am so sorry for your loss...you are right, there are never words for this. Praying God give you peace and strength. Please let us know if there is anything we can do.

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  5. Heather and Adam,
    I am deeply sadenned for your loss. I know there are no magic words to make your pain any less over losing Parker. If there were I would say them one thousand times over. All I can do is offer my prayers for your family during this difficult time and let you know you are all in my thoughts.

    I am so very sorry Heather that you only got to hold him twice. It is not fair and it shouldn't be like this. Praying for you as you navigate through your grief.

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  6. I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet little boy Parker. You are in my heart and in my thoughts as you navigate these most difficult days ahead.

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  7. heather- i'm so SO sorry. i know this road you are walking all too well. know that i am here for you any time. 260-246-2342 if you need me.

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  8. I am so very sorry for your loss. Just know there are people you've never met grieving with you. My prayers to your family.

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  9. Heather,
    I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your sweet, sweet boy. I know that no words will ease your pain and sadness right now, or in the future for that matter, but please know that I (and so many others) are praying for you. I understand this road you are walking far to well and the inconsolable pain it brings...please let me know if there is anything you need in the upcoming days, weeks, months...

    Love and prayers to you and your family.

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  10. I am so sorry for your loss. Please be aware that a stranger with be praying for you and your family from Alabama.

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  11. Heather, I am praying for you and your family... God Bless yall in your time of hurt and need.. I am so sorry for your loss

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  12. Heather I've been following your blog and Parker's progress and I'm heartbroken to hear of his passing.
    You and your beautiful angel will be in my thoughts.
    Amy from California

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  13. praying for you! sorry for your loss.

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  14. I am so sorry that you have to go through this. I know from experience how painful it is to lose a little one that you had great hopes for. I pray that you will be able to feel peace and the love of our Heavenly Father during this difficult time.

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  15. I am coming here from Stefenie's blog and just wanted to say how deeply sorry I am for your loss of sweet Parker. Sending many prayers and thoughts your way.

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  16. I also have been following your blog. I am not a CHD mother, but my heart aches for your loss. Many prayers for you and your family.

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  17. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Your sweet family will be in our prayers.

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  18. I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

    Andrea

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  19. I am very sorry to hear this, I had been following his progress and praying for your family.

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  20. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful angel.

    Prayers for your family.

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  21. Heather and Adam,
    I am so so sorry to hear of Parker's passing. I am keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.
    (((hugs)))

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  22. Your son is absolutely gorgeous. I am so sorry for your loss.

    Sending love and light.

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  23. So incredibly sorry for your loss and the grief you are enduring. Sending thoughts of love and hope that you find the strength you need in the coming weeks and months. You are not alone, hope you continue to feel surrounded by the love and support of many ((hugs))
    ~LFCA

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  24. I heard about your son on another blog that I follow. I too lost my sweet baby boy six months ago after his battle with HLHS. He was 12 days old. It is an unbelievably hard road to travel.. but the Lord has been close to me and He will be close to you as well. Praying for you during this time.

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  25. I am so sorry for your loss. I am heartbroken that another little heart baby has joined so many that passed too early. You all remain in my thoughts and prayers.

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  26. I am so sorry. I've cried tears for you. I will continue praying for your family.
    Angie

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  27. I'm so sorry for your loss.
    (LFCA)

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  28. We are very sorry for your loss.We are all praying for you.

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  29. I am so sorry and thinking of you Xxx

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  30. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. We are here for you. Hugs and comfort. (LFCA)

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  31. I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking and praying for you and your husband.
    Melissa

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  32. I'm here from LFCA. I'm so sorry you lost your beautiful son Parker. Your love for him as parents is palpable in your posts. Know that you are exactly the mother he needed. I'm so sorry that he was only with you on earth for such a short time - he will be kept alive in his mommy and daddy's hearts. Thank you for sharing your story and Parker's story with us. (( hugs ))

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  33. I am so terribly sorry. I will keep you and your darling Parker in my prayers.

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  34. Here via Hope's Blog.

    I am so very sorry to hear of Parker's death.
    Please know you are not alone in your grief.
    I have been where you are.
    Our son died from his CHD at this time last year.

    If you need someone to talk to, you can email me at busters.house[at]gmail.com
    May peace be with you.

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  35. This total stranger is sending up lots of love and prayers for Parker, for you, and for your entire family.

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  36. Here from LFCA. I have a broken heart over Parker's broken heart. I'm the mommy of a heart baby too.

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  37. I'm so very sorry. I'm the mom of a heart baby too. We'll be sending much love your way.

    kate
    LFCA

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  38. I am sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts this week.

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  39. We had 18 days. I held mine twice too. Once b4 We thought he was goin to surgery and when we took him off support. It sux. His story is at caringbridge.org/visit/sylas

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