Tuesday, October 5, 2010

After a hard day....

Today has been hard for both me and Adam. I think the reality of everything is finally hitting us. After we learned of baby Ewans passing yesterday it really hit home for both of us. I just cant understand why babies have to go to heaven and be taken away from their parents. Even though we are trying to stay positive it so hard not to think of the reality of our situation. Someday I hope that we will be able to look into little Parker's eyes and know that everything is going to be ok and that he will fight through all of this but right now the unknown is too much to handle.

After a hard day of sitting and wondering why us and why our innocent baby little Parker showed me a new first tonight....he got the hiccups! It was his little way of telling his mommy and daddy that even though there will be lots of "hiccups" along the way that we will make it through this and its all gonna be so worth it when we finally meet him.


  1. I really love this Heather and Adam. We love you three so much!

  2. its not right that some parents have to lose their children before they even have a chance..but miracles happen too, every single day. Don't ever forget that and don't ever lose hope.. I have a friend named Amy and her little boy logan had a heart transplant last month because of hlhs, and he is proving over and over that God is good, I have a link on my blog if you want to hop over, also FB me if you are interested in chatting with her, I can suggest her as a friend to you! ((hugs))

  3. Hi Heather!

    Found your blog by the comment you left on mine =) Just wanted to leave you a quick note to say I will be praying for you, your pregnancy and upcoming arrival of baby Parker! Also wanted to let you know we are big Chiefs fans also! My parents grew up in St. Louis/Kansas City and I have family there, so I already feel the connection with you! I also have a dear friend whose baby has undergone 2 of the 3 surgeries for HLHS and he is doing fantastic! She has a caringbridge page. Send me a message if you want =) Take care!