Today has been hard for both me and Adam. I think the reality of everything is finally hitting us. After we learned of baby Ewans passing yesterday it really hit home for both of us. I just cant understand why babies have to go to heaven and be taken away from their parents. Even though we are trying to stay positive it so hard not to think of the reality of our situation. Someday I hope that we will be able to look into little Parker's eyes and know that everything is going to be ok and that he will fight through all of this but right now the unknown is too much to handle.
After a hard day of sitting and wondering why us and why our innocent baby little Parker showed me a new first tonight....he got the hiccups! It was his little way of telling his mommy and daddy that even though there will be lots of "hiccups" along the way that we will make it through this and its all gonna be so worth it when we finally meet him.